I used to spend my birthday’s comparing myself and my life.  I used to think of all the things I hadn’t done yet and my lack of success.  I would celebrate my birthday excessively so that I didn’t have to feel all the things I was feeling.

I hated my birthday for many years.  When I was little it always seemed like it was a terrible day.  When I turned 15 my father tried to take his life on my birthday.  For many years, I took that to heart. Years later he explained that he didn’t purposely pick that day.  Basically, I carried a lot of bad shit around and tied it to my birthday.  SUPER UNHEALTHY.

Around my 25th year, I decided that I was going to take my birthday back. 

I get to live another 365 days on this flying circle of water and stone.  What isn’t there to celebrate? Once I journeyed down this path of self-love, I started really embracing my birthday and finding the joy in celebrating me, right now, without comparison.  I stopped making lists of what I hadn’t accomplished and started making lists of why I am fucking grateful.

Stepping into 34 feels really good.  I am so damn happy in my life right now and I cannot wait to see what I can do with my next 366 days (leap year ya know).  I started my own company and I get to help womxn take back their lives and live as the badasses they are. I have taught myself how to build a website, be a social media manager and marketer, I got certified as a life coach and a level II Reiki therapist.  I spent 33 learning, growing, building and healing.

So here is to 34, celebrating everything I have and everything that is yet to come!  To my husband, dogs, family, friends, readers, followers, and clients thank you for being with my on this journey.  Here is to new adventures, new goals, new wealth, living in unlimited abundance and the power of being authentically me. 

Have you ever felt a connect to a word but weren’t sure why? For me, this word has always been badass.

I use this phrase regularly.  It makes me feel empowered and free.  I always envisioned myself a badass woman who lives her life fearlessly and in her power.  I am finally walking this path…mostly.  Sometimes fear still creeps in but I don’t believe living fearlessly means you are without fear, it just means you still do the things you want regardless of that fear.

I didn’t realize why I was using this phrase and what it really means to me until last week.  I was reading Witch: Unleashed. Untamed. Unapologetic. by Lisa Lister and she talked about being a badass.  In that moment it all clicked for me.  I’ve been a witch my entire life and this word has always been there in my subconscious telling me that I AM A BADASS.

I am a strong woman. I have survived so much fucking pain.  I built walls and buried things because I had to and 2018 was the year, I took down those walls and began truly healing.  Not to get rid of those things, but to accept that they will always be part of who I am. To recognize that I can let go of the survival mentality and truly have a great life.  Fearless, powerful, authentic, and badass!!

This is part of my WHY.  Women embracing the divine feminine energy they were given.  Finding the power in the feminine.  Recognizing that you do not have to continue trying to make it in a patriarchal world.  You weren’t meant to make it in a patriarchal world.  Literally, it was created for men to succeed and women to be kept in their place of submission.

Taking back your power is one of the best forms of rebellion.  Saying I am a woman, I am powerful, and I am here to fucking change the world is beautiful and badass.

Embrace the badass that you are.  Heal your societal wounds.  Understand that you are powerful and your voice matters.
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BE A BADASS!!!